If Tears Could Build A Stairway... And Memories Build A Lane, I'd Walk Right Up To Heaven... And Bring You Home Again...
Song: May Angels Lead You In - Jimmy Eat World
A short poem that over the years has come to mean a great deal to me. Now, I'm pretty much new to this whole blogging thing. And probably, no one will ever read this... but I needed to get it out. Things have been pretty tough lately. And I've been bottling it inside...
I often find myself wondering… why is it always the good people that are taken from us? Why do the good ones have to be the ones to suffer before finally passing on to whatever lies beyond? My Nan used to say it was because… God chose those people to sit at his side, because they are so good and special... she used to say that... he needed them more than we do.’ which is a nice sentiment, if you believe… but honestly? Not meaning to offend anyone but... how is that a comfort? It's not...until you're finally able to move on... and well, to be frank about things, I’m not sure what to believe anymore. Things just seem to get worse of late, as the years go on...and more and more people are being taken before their time. Not that any time is right for that sort of thing but… I guess it just makes me wonder… why? Why them? Why the ones that can give you so much. Bring so much sunshine into your life… have to leave why is it them? So… today, I just got some news that really wasn’t that good. It’s bullshit. It really is. But I guess you could say ‘That’s life, deal with it’ but… I’m not a strong person. And I hate the fact that sometimes we have to ‘cry’ and let our emotions out. I feel stupid enough half the time as it is without breaking down into tears every day or so. I don’t really know what to feel at the moment, I guess all you can say is that… I feel numb… and that well... I don't like it.
I guess I'm done for now. I'll keep you posted soon.
XOXO
Tara
